Most people, even some sayings suggest that dying trying is a good thing. But that supports most people who stop at tying and never get to doing. They have the sizzle of the steak, but never deliver the steak itself.

This is the continuation of yesterday’s article.
‘Not real, not real.’ What happens when you can say that?
I may not live much longer, but while I am alive, I’ll do the work necessary.

I slept a total of two hours last night. Then I woke up with a start… could not go back to sleep… And the experience of I am suffocating every time I put my head down is not ever going to allow me to sleep again.

So I got up, and researched chronic pulmonary obstruction disease… My symptoms are most similar to that…

Then I went back to bed and practiced for an hour to say: ‘not real, not real’ every time the panic came up. The not real tells me relax the muscles that block the air flow. I did that 80 times in that hour.

This is not dissimilar to the Amish Horse Training Method, where what needs to be let go of is a thought, but it isn’t the thought that keeps you miserable, it’s the meaning.
So the meaning is what is not real.
‘I am suffocating’… is not real. I noticed that there was, each time, an image or a mini-movie that triggered it. It was easier to see because I had my eyes closed……

Eighty repetitions got me to being consciously incompetent. The goal is to get myself to unconscious competence. Muscletest says another 300 successful repetitions can take me there. In the meantime my vibration has dropped, my IQ has dropped, and there is no guarantee that I’ll be able to sleep through the night even after I get competent.

But without integrity nothing works, not you, not your life. And worse than that: you can’t love yourself. And without integrity your word has no power.

When you say: ‘not real’, you are creating with your word… and if your word has no power, then you won’t obey it. In my case, in suffocating: if I didn’t HONOR my word, I would jump up and try to stay alive… Instead, when I say not real, not real… I already relax the muscles that obstruct my airways. And when I really-really didn’t react, my eyes even stayed closed… About half of the 80 instances.
Why is this called The Amish Horse Training Method?
The Amish ties the young horse to a fence post on the side of the highway for days, about 7 days. Every vehicle passing triggers the horse until it gets it, if it gets it, that all that noise is not personal, and that he, the horse, can let go of reacting to every noise.

Only humans are so arrogant to believe that just knowing what there is to do is enough…

So I have had not one student who has achieved mastery at the Amish Horse Training Method, even though I have no students who wouldn’t need it. Because just like an untrained horse reacts to everything, you do too… And it is as dangerous as in the case of the horse: you pull your whole life in the way of the eighteen
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I had a rough night. I could barely breath, especially when I lied down. So I didn’t…

It’s been coming for about three weeks, and it didn’t respond to healing.

It felt likely that it was my last night on earth.

And I had no idea what was causing it. I sat on the edge of the bed. I sat on the chair by my computer. taking even just five steps felt like the end of me.
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I had a flash of insight today.

I have been looking at books, movies, TV-shows and see what attracted me, and when I was not attracted, what turned me off.

I saw that I would stop reading or stop watching in the middle, if the main character isn’t made
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Yesterday’s article fell flat on its face… as it was predictable in view of my almost 40 year experience.

If I started again from where YOU are, no distinctions, I would print out the ‘koan’ I heard many times from Forum Leaders:
For you everything is the same as everything else… except that not always.

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1) What was your primary reason for asking for your health measurement?
I had been feeling stiffness and pain in my back for over a year and finally decided to order a health measurement from Sophie to find out what was causing it. I suspected that it was a health-related issue and that there was something out there that could help me get back to feeling normal again. I had a feeling that it was really time to seek help and that I shouldn’t wait much longer.
2) Describe what your understanding was regarding what you found out
My understanding was that I had an issue with my small and large intestines and that receiving healing from Sophie was the fastest way to start resolving the illness. If I had not chosen to receive the healing as quickly as I did, I could have gotten myself into an expensive and/or potentially dangerous situation that would require medical treatment.
3) Describe how things changed in your thinking now that you knew what was maybe off with your health?
Previously I thought that things happened to me, that I wasn’t responsible or aware of how my actions affected my life including my health. I had a suspicion that something I was doing wasn’t working well, but I probably wanted to be right about things instead of finding out what I could do differently. Now I see that I don’t need to “be right” or make myself “wrong”, I can choose to take guidance from others who may be in a better position to know what is good for me or what I would be better off not doing.
4) If you took healing: Describe how you feel now, after the completed healing?
At first, I did not feel much different after receiving the healing, but I did feel a little lighter. It took a few months for the back pain to reduce in intensity; over time I gradually started to feel better and noticed that I had more energy. I suspect some of the lifestyle changes that I made (based on Sophie’s guidance and feedback) also helped with my overall health scores and reduction in pain.
5) Can you describe to a newcomer how this remote healing thing is done? From your vantage point.
After sending a photo of yourself to Sophie, she can connect to you and determine if you have any illnesses and if they can be healed. These illnesses usually involve a blockage of energy. If I understand correctly, to heal an illness, Sophie utilizes special energies that work with the client’s consciousness, and the consciousness works with the body to restore the affected part(s) of the body to their original design (to the degree that it can be done). The healing is not necessarily permanent as the illness can come back if the root cause was not addressed.
6) Describe Sophie as a teacher and healer.
Sophie has a great deal of experience with life and what she calls “the invisible”, meaning deeper layers and dynamics of how things work that other people either have not figured out yet or don’t understand well. She uses her skills and abilities to help her clients with getting to where
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Most people stop and are satisfied with the idea of a thing they want. They never do more, and they are surprised that life doesn’t work.

In this article I won’t talk about the fact that people are not willing to actually do anything much for what they want… it is widely known… so I’ll just assume that you know that, but that is not the only thing that’s missing.

I know it is not nice to be critical of one’s alma mater, but even Landmark Education (where I learned most of what I know) never went beyond that.
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from Jodie
1) What was your primary reason for asking for your health measurement?
Initially I asked for this only because I was curious. I thought I was in fairly good health and I just wanted to make sure. It turned out I was wrong. That was my very first communication with Sophie, and three major healings later I would say it has been life-changing.

2) Describe what your understanding was regarding what you found out
My understanding was that there was an issue with my ovaries that was still small enough to address, and that there were things I could do to address it, and also that my cell hydration was enormously lower than I would have guessed, extremely low, but that there were options available that Sophie could help me with.

3) Describe how things changed in your thinking now that you knew what was maybe off with your health?
I was very surprised that I could have been wrong in how I viewed my health, I thought I was pretty knowledgeable about health and I thought I was quite healthy. I found out I was wrong on both counts, and what changed in my thinking was that I had to then question pretty much everything else I thought I knew on that same level, primarily politics and religion, but pretty much everything.

4) If you took healing: Describe how you feel now, after the completed healing?
I have no more pain in the area of my ovaries, and no more chapped lips when my cell hydration is up where it should be. Overall I feel great, and so grateful.

5) Can you describe to a newcomer how this remote healing thing is done? From your vantage point.
From my vantage point, the remote healing is done through energies, energies that Sophie is able to direct to enable the brain and body to re-organize (as I see it) and reconfigure, and chip away at the illness until it is gone. The healing doesn’t seem to address the core issue, at least not for everyone…the thing that causes the illness (and causes it to re-occur). That is up to each of us to work on. But Sophie’s coaching is the guidance needed to work through that core issue as well.

5) Describe Sophie as a teacher and healer.
I would describe Sophie as amazing…I see her as the equivalent of a chess Grandmaster for people, because she doesn’t know what ‘move’ each person is going to do next in response to her coaching, and she can re-direct as necessary, observing and making the next redirect as necessary to eventually get to the core of the thing tripping us up. In my case she had to do the same thing with healing…I was blocking the healing with my attitudes and my self-concern, to the point where it had to be maddening for her, but she kept working with me until eventually she directed me to some core issues that managed to open up the blockage and allow the healing to occur. I would say that was no small task, it took a LOT of doing on her part to get through my thick head, and a level of skill that I can’t even fathom. Not because I was complex, only because I
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Everything you ever wanted comes to you through people. And everything you ever wanted is on the other side of NOT FEAR but entitlement.

Not some deity, not the Universe, but people. Darn! right?

Because we are lousy at this people thing, aren’t we?
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