I am prone to depression. Not sadness, but a loss of aliveness, a loss of inner motivation. I have barely came out of a bout with one… and have been intensely curious of what caused it. Depression, as I experience … Continue reading
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If this article doesn’t apply to you, then I hope you are intelligent enough to know… Just please know, that 90% of the people it applies to will also think: “This doesn’t apply to me”. lol… not funny. For context, …
It’s been a weird couple of days. Every time I stop doing something my mind goes to evil acts I have seen in movies or read about in books. It started with the Marco Polo series on Netflix. I realized …
What you are, instead alive, is a walking dead, resigned, and settled for the little that, it seems, life has to offer. To you. You see others, seemingly happy, seemingly alive, and you feel regret, shame, and envy. Your heart, …
Did you know that every revolution has been, historically, just a re-shuffling of who is going to have power over who? When I first read Osho’s book, Rebellion, Revolution and Religiousness, I actively worked on understanding. In Hungary we learned …
I don’t know… I am still crying. The mini-series I watched is called River… we could have called it Riveting… because it is. For me… River is a police detective. His long time partner, Frankie gets murdered: shot from a …
When crying/sobbing has no content, when you don’t know why you are crying, then something deep is clearing out. When you know why you are crying, then some past gets confirmed and your ego will try and repeat it for …